Choices

I can’t believe we are already at the end of September. Time is just flying by and I’m trying to make a conscious effort to enjoy the days of my favorite season. I don’t want them to pass by in a blur.

Sunday, our lesson in Relief Society was the talk from President Monson on choices. From the things the teacher talked about, I really liked the idea of making conscious choices and defining our lives rather than just letting them pass by so I’ve been trying to pay attention to my choices this week. I’ve been in a bit of a funk. I’ve told myself its ok as I deal with grief and stress and anxiety but I don’t want to feel that way all the time.

I made the choice not to get up to exercise this morning. J  I did use my lunch break to walk 2 miles at the park (another conscious choice). I’m happy I still did it and being outside in the sunshine felt great, but I realize that I didn’t actually get any more sleep by pushing snooze so I should have just gotten up. I’m tired either way.  Tomorrow I will choose to get it done in the morning.

I also chose to eat a few squares of a Lindt Intense Mint dark chocolate bar after lunch.  And it was delicious.

My Favorite Season

It’s September.  That means I’m eating lots of peaches! They are in season here in Northern Utah. Mom lost her peach trees when she moved but my sister also moved last year and gained 5 trees so I’ve still been eating them fresh picked as they ripen. Yum!

It also means we are entering my favorite time of year. September thru November is really kind of heaven for me.  It’s still a little warm right now, but the nights are getting cooler and the days will be too.  Up in the very tops of the mountains I am seeing some color as the leaves start changing. Pretty soon we’ll be seeing it in our yards also. I LOVE autumn!

Here's a small list why:

Warm socks
Hot Chocolate
Storms
My down comforter
Pumpkins
Leaves changing colors
Baking
Soup
Watching the rain from my front window
Curling up with a good book – ha ha ok I do that no matter the season
Scarves
Boots
Sweaters
Cooler days and nights

An Un-Anniversary of Sorts

A friend and I went to see the Dixie Chicks in concert last Friday night. It was fun. They did a lot of my favorite songs. I love their music. The concert was at the Usana Amphitheater. I had never been there before. I liked the outdoor setting. We had seats, but the lawn seating was pretty far back. The tickets would have had to be really cheap for me to want to sit back there.  And it’s a pain in the butt to get in and out of. On the way back home we stopped at a gas station for a drink and then turned up the music and sang at the top of our lungs, partly to keep us awake and partly because it was fun.

As I was driving to work this morning the announcer on the radio said the date and it seemed really familiar to me for some reason. Then I realized that I got married 20 years ago today. I was divorced 5 years later, but this was the big day. Looking back I can’t believe how different my life has been from what I had planned. Not different in a bad way, because I am generally happy.  It’s just I was young and back then I thought that I had to get married and have kids and a house and all that stuff. 

There are only a few things in my life that I truly regret, so I don’t think getting married was one of them, but I can’t say it was a good thing. It’s hard to remember anything happy about those five years of my life even though there must have been some good times. Maybe I should say I rarely have reasons to remember those times (good or bad) because they have nothing to do with my life today, except for maybe being a kind of crossroads to the path I did go down.  Regardless, I am happy with where I did end up and have been blessed in so many ways.

August

August is actually the cruelest month, at least for this year.

My dad died on August 5^th.  Long story short: he made the decision to stop dialysis. We sat with him for the 2 days it took.  

What an absolute roller coaster of emotions.

To compound everything I’ve had some car problems and sometimes it’s the last straw. I feel bad for a couple people who have caught me at my breaking point and have had to deal with a few tears at inopportune moments. OOPS

And yet life goes on. People are out mowing lawns, walking dogs, going to work, a whole myriad of things and I feel a little outside of it all.

I’m doing ok and things will settle down into a new normal. I guess. There’s just a big hole in our family now.

I’ve learned a few things. One thing is I’ve been a really bad friend to a few people who have experienced the death of a loved one.  I want to change that going forward.

Lots of people have expressed condolences or whatever you want to call it. And then there are people who don’t know what to say and that’s ok too. That’s usually where I am on the spectrum.  All the little gestures of kindness truly help, whether it is a card, text, plants, chocolate, coming to the viewing and funeral, or even just popping into my office to tell me they are sorry.

I am humbled by how kind people can be.

I am not really a blogger. I have this blog, which is mostly an online journal but I don’t actively share it with people. I doubt anyone reads it except me which is totally fine but I’m putting this out there for the universe. I believe with everything that I am that I will see my dad again. Death isn’t the end and families are eternal.

Book Review: Class 5 Series

I’ve been on a huge space opera/SFR kick lately. That’s all I’ve wanted to read. I prefer them to be light on the technical details as long as the world is interesting. After all, I’m reading about spaceships and aliens so I’m willing to accept the fantastical. Most of the recent sci-fi romance seems to be self-published. I’m ok with that and I try to do a little digging for content. Goodreads has some good lists I’ve been browsing through for new books to try.

I recently discovered Michelle Diener’s Class 5 series: Dark Horse, Dark Deeds, and Dark Minds. I read Dark Horse in June and liked it quite a bit except for a few things.  This last week I read Dark Deeds and then realized that Dark Minds was just published and I bought it and read the entire book last night.

Each book has a different heroine who has been abducted from Earth and held hostage or prisoner and each of them comes in contact with an AI or “thinking system” and becomes a kind of conscience for them as they are set free. There’s an ongoing story about the different alien races trying to destroy or capture the Class 5 ships and keep the galaxy from war.  And of course, there are the heroes who find and rescue the ladies (initially – there’s a lot of ladies rescuing their men also).

The series as a whole is fantastic. I had 2 problems with it in general. The first is that all 3 women learned multiple languages fluently in 2 months or less. It’s a minor issue and it’s offset by the whole notion that there were other races and cultures and of course they would speak differently. The second is that each book has a central romance and they all took place in less than a week. I generally don’t like insta-love and wasn’t prepared for it to be that fast in the first book. I was ready for the others and they didn’t bother me so much and I just went with it.

Again, those are minor issues. There are a lot of little details that I just loved. One was the fact that the food didn’t taste great to Rose, Fiona, or Imogen and they had to find things they could eat and did like. Another was how music was used culturally by the Grih and how different it is from Earth culture. The songs sung by Fiona and Imogen cracked me up a few times. I have to admit the songs that weren’t actually named had me wondering what they were exactly, and the ones that were had me listening/watching videos on YouTube.

Anyway, I’ve had a great time with this series and can already tell I will be re-reading at least my favorite parts.

I think readers who enjoyed the Scarabaeus series by Sara Creasy or the Paradox series by Rachel Bach would enjoy this.

Charlie

I don't really like animals. I don't wish them harm or anything and bad pet owners make me mad, but I don't want to have pets myself.


But sometimes they are fun to play with. My sister's dog is crazy but I like him anyway. Sometimes.

He's sitting in my front seat ready to go for a ride. How could you not love this face? LOL

In other news... we decided to not go to Japan next year for a variety of reasons. We are looking at a couple other places though. And we'll see what happens. In the meantime, I will keep saving money and vacation for travel and home repairs.

Decisions, Decisions

Grrr.... my sister sent me an email that Cathay Pacific is having a sale of 55% off flights to Japan. It would be $1000.00 from Salt Lake. Tickets have to be purchased by July 31 and flights have to be before May 31, 2017. Foreign flights for $1000 or less is a great price and Cathay Pacific is an airline that I really like. Very comfortable for long flights.


I have the money, that's not a problem...but I was kind of planning on staying home next year. I've been thinking about a new car, and I've been thinking about painting walls and replacing the carpet in my home and a myriad of other things that cost money or would need a little time off from work. LOL - what's a girl to do?


What if this is my chance to see Japan? We have friends living in Tokyo right now and they won't be there forever. I told her we better seriously consider this. People tell me a lot that they wish they could travel like I do. Someday is a word I hear all the time. It's a terrible word. Sometimes you have to say TODAY. Or at least before the end of the month. :)


A trip to the library for some Japan travel guides is going to happen really soon.