Snow Day

And the snow is coming down! Still not complaining but I decided to work from home today. That way I have a window and can watch it snow and drink cocoa. Plus I have a ton of work to do so I can just set up my day and work away without needing to drive anywhere. Added bonus: I'll already be at home when the work is done and can settle in with a book or puzzle. Nope, not going to complain.  

Happy Birthday to Me

This has been a much better day than last year. I miss mom though. But I just got back from a quick road trip to Sedona, AZ and mom would have loved it. Sedona is fun! And so beautiful this time of year. I can’t believe how crowded it was in February, but we were there over a holiday weekend as well. We’ve already decided that it’s a place we’d go back. It was a long drive home but sleeping in my own bed last night made it worth it. 

We came home to snow. Finally snow! The sun was really great, but I’m not going to complain about winter hanging on a bit longer. Spring will come. I’ve been running errands and cleaning out my car. Bought myself clearance Valentine’s flowers. Then went to lunch with my sister and niece which was really nice.  LOL It’s a good day to turn 50. Don’t know how it happened but happy to be here. 

One Year

Hard to believe it’s 1 year since mom died. It’s been eons and the blink of an eye at the same time. We’ve navigated through family dinners, birthdays, holidays, and even vacations without her. When dad died he left a big hole in the family, but he was the guy in the background with the funny sense of humor, especially after his illness started. Mom was the one in the trenches who went everywhere and was always doing things for us. (Not that dad didn’t, but in different ways). Sometimes I just don’t know how to feel. That’s ok, it’s just how life is. So I guess I’ll pass this milestone and keep on going. Not sure I feel like celebrating my birthday, which is fine since I can do it any way I want. Might just sit at home with a book and some cocoa. Maybe a Dr. Pepper. Sounds like a good day to me.  

Micro-Adventures

I was sitting around being lazy this morning when I suddenly decided I needed to get out of the house. So I texted my sister and an hour later we were off for an adventure. My sister has started calling them micro-adventures: small things to enjoy the place we live and support local businesses. We drove to Logan ha ha. Did the usual and had lunch at Great Harvest, stopped by the Book Table and Bluebird and picked up some cheese at Gossners. I didn’t realize it was supposed to snow but it did start to snow on us but we went for a little walk by the Logan river anyway. It was so nice to get out for a bit. The snow wasn’t terrible in the canyon, but the front of the car was coated with it when we finally got home. 

It’s officially birthday shopping month….and I don’t want to buy anything. I don’t need any more books and there’s only a few that I actually want and they aren’t quite published yet. I’m trying to use the perfume I have, and I’ve also been working on producing less waste and looking at the single use plastics I use. Some I’m not giving up, but others I am. Baby steps. 

I don’t feel like I have major depression or anything like that, but this year has been a challenge and I am not excited about much. Add to it that mom’s death anniversary is coming up. Truthfully, I feel that it’s more the external things than grief that is affecting me right now. So still working on figuring out how to deal with that and what things I can actually do. I don’t always get it right but have to keep trying.