Then Tuesday and back to work came. I was fine most of the day. My supervisor had tried to help with some of the onboarding tickets coming in, which was really great of her. But by afternoon, I was so tired of all the stupid things people keep doing and the issues that I don’t know how to fix. I had a little mini melt down. Luckily, I was working from home today. I seriously need to take some deep breaths and just walk away or something when I start spiraling. It was almost the end of the day anyway, so I shut my computer down and started cleaning my house and then I made dinner, did the dishes, and just generally got my house in order. If feels good to have done that. And then before I came upstairs to get ready for bed, I did a quick calming yoga session and just breathed in and out and stretched my neck and back. Both are so tight right now.
So I think I’m going to do this one day at a time. Tomorrow I will take some deep breaths and deal with the tickets on my own time and terms. I can put myself on “do not disturb” for the whole day if I have to. And my sisters and I are already doing another walking challenge for the summer so I’m starting to get out again, but I think I’m going to add some yoga on the days I’m not walking. I need to do something else and I need the stretching. I need to take a few more breaks during the day to stand and stretch as well.
All I know is that I can’t go on like this. It’s not good for my physical or mental health, but it’s also my job right now. I know it will get better. It’s just getting to that point.
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