Today

Well, birthday shopping month has not turned out like I had planned. My mom died on February 14 due to liver failure. She basically went to sleep and never woke up. We had moved her to a hospital down in Murray and they evaluated her and told us they couldn’t do a liver transplant. We thought we would be able to move her to a care center with hospice like we did for my dad, but the doctor said it would be minutes to hours before she died once we stopped the medication keeping her heart beating. It was about 3 hours, I think. It’s been rough.

My birthday was a few days later and I just really didn’t want to celebrate but I decided to have the family over for cake and ice cream since the kids like that. It was nice, although a hard day. I do not feel like book shopping right now though I know one day I will get back to it. 

I took this entire week off from work. The funeral is on Thursday and we’ve got everything planned and ready to go. So today I didn’t have anything much to do. I decided to have a day for myself. I slept in and went to the grocery store. I think I’ll go for a walk in a little bit, even though it’s raining and drizzly. Still my favorite kind of weather. Some friends/neighbors brought me dinner last night and it’s so much food, I have enough for a few days. Shepherds Pie and brownies. It is so yummy, and a wonderful comfort food. 

I bought myself leftover Valentine’s flowers at the grocery store. They are so bright and pretty. Truly, joy can be found in the hard times. 

We started cleaning out mom’s house already, mostly for something to do, plus it will need to be sold before we can pay the medical bills. Right now I really don’t want to buy anything ever again. LOL When I think about all the stuff my mom has in that little house and I think about someone cleaning out my own little house, I think I want to be a little more circumspect and buy less stuff. And that fits right along with the theme for this year. It really hits home now though.